And now for something completely different: a story about healing cock, originally written to Lurrel in gchat in the dead of the night.


( do not read this if you take healing cock very seriously )


Oh hey, I'm supposed to be presenting my portfolio in a few hours. PERHAPS I SHOULD FOCUS ON THAT.

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As much as I would like to say I wrote this after being kidnapped by a many-tentacled sea monster with a severe allergy to quotation marks, I won't.


Title: Distomos
Fandom: Inception
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Arthur/Eames/Saito
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, making no profit off 'em, etc. 
Word Count: 8,500
Summary: Saito makes them do it.

Notes: Based on a kink meme prompt that wanted Saito forcing Arthur and Eames to get it on. Contains noncon/dubcon, forced stimulation, and references to mental illness.

Link: Distomos

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This is so late, but whatever. My remix fic this year was written for the lovely eustacia_vye28, who provided some very interesting glimpses into Yusuf's life that begged to be explored further.

Title: The Amaranth Impasse (Rajgira Remix)
Fandom: Inception
Rating: R
Pairing: Yusuf/Ariadne friendship, Arthur/Eames/Ariadne, Arthur/Ariadne, Eames/Ariadne, Arthur/Eames
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, making no profit off 'em, etc. 
Word Count: 3,500
Summary: Yusuf can read people when it matters the most, but being the intermediary isn't always easy.

Notes: This is a remix of You Can't Ever Say Good-Bye by eustacia_vye28. With thanks to a couple of IRL friends for input on important things like how to swear in Marathi. Contains references to suicide of a non-canon character


Link: The Amaranth Impasse (Rajgira Remix)

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This is the short story. There's a longer version, but it's maudlin and boring and full of peculiar bits of dried fruit, so consider yourselves spared.

So, hello!

I didn't mean to make anyone worry. Sometimes I'll have moments of "dear sweet mother of Moses, my fandom life is a compendium of mediocrities!" but then I get over myself and remember how much fandom has helped me grow and become more comfortable with who I am and how I interact. In general, fandom has been really awesome to me. It just makes me flounder when I don't think I can be awesome back.

However, I'm doing better and I want to specify that if I ever plan on deleting everything full stop--LJ and AO3, the whole kit and caboodle, which I don't have any intention of doing--I will always give some kind of notice first.

Here, have something that made me smile.

Now someone write fic to go with it, mkay?

(How weird is it seeing bb!JGL's sharp little shoulders and knowing he's running around looking all beefed up nowadays? Pulling a Hardy, are we?)

(Oh, I also saw Avengers. And basically what I need now is tons of fanworks where Thor and/or Loki crossdress. I CANNOT CALL IT FACT, BUT IT'S MYTHOLOGICAL CANON, OKAY.)

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Remix is here!

I swear, every year I do this I'm blown away by how creative and talented the participants are. My remixer this time around chose to take on the only Arthur/Eames/Ariadne fic I've ever written, a PG-rated one-off about Ariadne coping with the aftereffects of dreaming, and turned it into a sweet, poignant story about Arthur and Eames looking out for each other and Arthur needing a sound machine to sleep and both of them wanting to keep Ariadne from heading down the same path as Cobb. It hits so many buttons of mine, particularly the concept of coming to trust someone in an untrustworthy environment, and it has bed-sharing and banter and little snippets of both the guys' backstories.

Please, if you have the time, go check it out and give the author a little love:

Infinity Spirals Out Creation (the Leave No Man Behind remix)

There are times when Arthur will turn the room upside-down, tear curtains off their rails and almost disembowel soft furnishings looking for a totem he's convinced he's lost and which Eames can't help him look for because the terror of having someone else touch your totem would probably lead asleep-Arthur to claw his eyes out.

There are times when Arthur will keep his light on and read bits and pieces of inane trivia out loud until Eames dozes off, or when he'll put a pot of tea on at four am even though he doesn't drink it, and the faint smell will send a restless Eames back to sleep.

They've never talked about it. They just get on with it. And more often than anything else, there are times they sit up together all night working, drinking coffee and tea and whiskey and whatever else they can get their hands on, and talking, and those times are worth a lot more than any sleep Eames has ever had on his own.

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Phew. Hi! I've been kind of lax about updating, haven't I? Me and the rest of the LJ world, it seems like.

For the record, I'm yviwashere on Twitter and I update that far more regularly. If I don't add you right away, it's because I don't know who you are, so please feel free to PM me with an intro and that should do it.

I've started writing proper posts a couple times over the past several weeks, but they've always petered out. Here's the beginning of one I started over a month ago:

Hello, I exist and I am writing, but sometimes I assume I give everyone around me secondhand embarrassment and then I fall off the face of the earth until gravity catches up. It's so much easier to just not feel guilty about things that aren't your fault, so I hear! What is this sorcery?

And that is...more or less an accurate summation of my life. I've been working a lot, trying to plot out my future a lot, and dabbling a bit in both Spartacus and Grimm. But mostly just trying to rein myself in and not have a very preemptive midlife crisis while contemplating fleeing the country again. Only not really because ADVANCED DEGREE.

I've also been writing, because if I don't make myself write then I worry I'll fall out of the habit or at the very least become too saturated with self-doubt to even try anymore, which has happened in the past. I've had less time for fandom lately since I've been swamped with academic-related things, but I still like to try and stay active when I can. Fandom is my go-to hobby when real life gets too ridiculous and I can't waste my time on it properly if I'm not even writing anything for it.

That said, if you read my last fic, I appreciate it. If you didn't care for it, I understand completely. I don't mind concrit at all and I've read several very valid points about why this one fell short. I admit I wrote it quickly, on a whim, while trying to do a handful of other things at once, with the ever-so-lofty goal of seeing if I could write knotting with a straight face. So I have no illusions about it being more than what it is (and I'd like to think the title alone tipped most people off to the fact that it's not exactly high art). I have, however, written about forty other fics for this fandom and I hope at least one of them has been something other than a pinwheel-wielding disappointment.

Thanks a heap to the kind anonymous souls who dropped links in the comments on both my LJ and AO3. Please PM me with the cock and asshole of your choice and I'll be sure to whip up something special for you.

I started writing this as an April Fool's challenge to myself because, while I love well-written knotting fic, I have the hardest time taking it seriously whenever I think of writing it myself.

This is also the most brilliant title I have ever come up with.

Title: Between a Knot and a Hard Place
Fandom: Inception
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, making no profit off 'em, etc. 
Word Count: 3,457
Summary: The perils of fucking on the job.

Notes: Inspired by a kink meme prompt that called for knotting and awkwardness.

( Between a Knot and a Hard Place )

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I've been battling laryngitis and a nasty cold for the past few days, so obviously writing was the perfect way to pass the time between coughing fits. My plans are so foolproof it's frightening.


Title: And Keep This Empire Alive
Fandom: Inception
Rating: R
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, making no profit off 'em, etc. 
Word Count: 3,220
Summary: “I’m putting an embargo on motivational parenting books,” Arthur warns. “I really mean it this time.”

Notes: This follows Atom to Atom, Pattern to Pattern (though it can also stand alone) and was inspired by this prompt from the kink meme. Contains lactation and references to mpreg.

Link: And Keep This Empire Alive

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Title: A Question of Idiom
Fandom: Inception
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, making no profit off 'em, etc. 
Word Count: 3,527
Summary: Eames is contemplating a job in Greenland. Arthur disapproves.

Notes: Inspired by a prompt from the kink meme: Eames discovers that Arthur can do this (vid is very NSFW) and he is simply amazed. Contains self-fucking/autosodomy. Thank you to cherrybina for letting me know that the proper term for self-fucking is indeed autosodomy. :)

( A Question of Idiom )

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And now for something completely different, because I'm surrounded by peer pressure and this idea just wouldn't leave me alone.


Title: Schämen
Fandom: Grimm
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, making no profit off 'em, etc. 
Word Count: 1,554
Summary: Nick hadn’t actually batted his eyes at him, but it was as good an explanation as any for why Monroe kept practically rolling over for a treat each time Nick told him to jump. Lashes like that just weren’t natural on anything that wasn’t a Gancanagh.

Notes: Written in response to a prompt on grimm_kink: Monroe has fleas.

Link: DW | AO3

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Title: Dismantling the Framework  
Authors: froggie and recrudescence
Fandom: Inception
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, making no profit off 'em, etc. 
Word Count: 5,026
Summary: It happens when a post-job drink becomes meeting one another shot for shot while trying to remain articulate and professional. This all goes swimmingly until Eames is halfway through another order and Arthur whispers in his ear, "I want you to lick your come off my chin."

Notes: This was written on a dreary, sleepless night several months back when the two of us decided the best cure for insomnia was cranking out something irredeemably plotless in which Arthur is the most shameless of drunks. Contains unsafe sex.

( Dismantling the Framework )

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In light of the mpreg meta that was just posted over at insearchtion, this is either a great time or an awful time to post this. Title edited because I belatedly realized there's actually another Arthur/Eames mpreg fic called Atom to Atom. And as much as I wanted to call this THE ONE WHERE ARTHUR LITERALLY HANDWAVES BIOLOGY, I feel like it lacks something.

Title: Atom to Atom, Pattern to Pattern
Fandom: Inception
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, making no profit off 'em, etc.
Word Count: 7,018
Summary: A lifetime of dreaming, scheming, and identity theft has taught Eames how to keep a level head in the most improbable situations.

Notes: Written in response to this prompt from inception_kink that asked for Arthur and Eames's first attempt at getting pregnant.


( Atom to Atom, Pattern to Pattern )

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It's officially New Year's Eve here, so I'm going to do something I haven't done for a little while and get my meme on.

This year, I've posted twenty-seven fics (all Inception except for one Glee and one Yuletide fandom, four of which don't currently have my name attached to them) and posted slightly over 150,000 words. This doesn't include WIPs (of which there are many) or cracked-out chats-turned-quasi-fic. Not too bad for working and going to school! Fandom is the best outlet ever.

( first lines of each, which actually reads like a very disjointed fic itself )

Conclusion, goals, and other boring introspective thoughts: need to write more stuff involving Yusuf because I really do like him, more stuff involving Cobb because his dynamic with Arthur deserves all the exploration, and more stuff where smut isn't necessarily the focus. I think my ~downfall~ this year was that I turned to the kink meme whenever I needed to play with something new, and while that was fun and I generally try to at least give my porn context, I'd like to focus a little more on writing things where the sex is either peripheral or incidental as opposed to front and center. Um. Not that I'm swearing off smut, for the record; I have way too many half-edited fics for that. Just trying to branch out some more instead of relying on more of the same.

I also want to give Grimmfic a whirl because I love that sort of fairy-tale-with-a-twist thing, and try to play in some more obscure fandoms by writing a few NYR fics. Non-fandom wise, I want to try and get some erotica (but contextualized erotica!) published and actually get paid in something other than a copy of the publication itself. Not looking to make a living, just want to see if I can hop that hurdle.

Oh, and harsher punishments for parole violators.



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Hello, strangers!

I've been MIA around these parts lately thanks to an overabundance of school, work, writing assignments, and holiday runarounds, but now that I actually have some downtime it's harder than ever to get reacquainted with the intricacies of actually posting here. What I have been doing is keeping up with my flist (for the most part), even though I haven't been commenting as much, and my Twitter feed when possible.

So, that said, I'm going to pimp some things now.

For those of you who enjoy podfic, sophinisba has taken on the unholy trilogy of the Sickness and Shame verse and, to the best of my knowledge, still has a voice. You can find all three here, and please leave her feedback if you have the time!

Yuletide is in full swing and the reveal is just around the corner, but I can't wait to gush about the fics I've gotten. Growing Together is a Last Unicorn fic about Molly Grue and Schmendrick making their way in the world after the events in canon. I asked specifically for anything to do with Molly and the author gave her a well-deserved happy ending wrapped up in a narrative that could have come straight out of a coda to the novel. Also, Schmendrick fails at growing a proper wizard's beard.

I also got a treat from another Ghostwriter fan (seriously, that was my show growing up, in all its uber-'90s glory): Eventually We Find Our Way gives us a very plausible look at Rob several years down the road--I always felt like he got the short end of the stick, since not only was he shy to begin with, he had to go and move to Australia--and some of the decisions he faces when he comes back to New York.

Inception fandom's festivus this time around was dream_holiday and just today I got an excellent fic from iri_descent. In The Great Game, Arthur and Eames gradually learn each other very well despite being apart for months at a time. I adore the Arthur characterization in this, and the way both of them are drawn to each other but not at all defined by each other. They're both very much professionals here and the author fleshes out their world so deftly that everything seems perfectly natural. I really enjoy it when there are little references to the world of dreaming, or to things that will later come up canonically, and the really beautiful thing is that I didn't mention this at all in my request and just so happened to land a writer with wonderful attention to detail anyway. There also just so happens to be a kitten and a bit of awesome Yusuf/Eames friendship.

And tomorrow, I am going to bake banana bread and party it up! Happy New Year in advance, guys, and thank you for making 2011 a lot more fun.

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Title: Counting Down to Another Day [2/2]
Fandom: Inception
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, making no profit off 'em, etc.
Word Count: 13,000
Summary: It’s not that he trusts Eames completely or anything that ridiculous. It’s just that they’ve worked together before, know each other more than peripherally, and it’s sometimes good to have a familiar face around while Cobb goes even more off the rails and off the grid.

Notes: Written as part of dream_holiday for eternalsojourn, who asked for something rated NC-17 with lots of kissing and making out and possibly a massage. Contains brief references to torture and termination of a pregnancy, but is actually fluffy like a poodle. Thank you to chibi_lurrel for lending a hand.

Also, because I'm a chronic double-dipper, I drew some inspiration from this prompt from the kink meme.

( Counting Down to Another Day )

Link: Part 1

Title: Counting Down to Another Day [1/2]
Fandom: Inception
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, making no profit off 'em, etc.
Word Count: 13,000
Summary: It’s not that he trusts Eames completely or anything that ridiculous. It’s just that they’ve worked together before, know each other more than peripherally, and it’s sometimes good to have a familiar face around while Cobb goes even more off the rails and off the grid.

Notes: Written as part of dream_holiday for eternalsojourn, who asked for something rated NC-17 with lots of kissing and making out and possibly a massage. Contains brief references to torture and termination of a pregnancy, but is actually fluffy like a poodle. Thank you to chibi_lurrel for lending a hand.

Also, because I'm a chronic double-dipper, I drew some inspiration from this prompt from the kink meme.

( Counting Down to Another Day )

Link: Part 2

Hi there, Yuletide author!

I now have actual content for you, but I'll leave the picture of Handsome Bob looking soulful anyway.



( fandom specifics here )

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Adventures in brevity: this was originally supposed to be about 1K. Apparently Arthur and his tramp stamp are serious business.

Title: body frail, been to jail
Fandom: Inception
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Arthur/Eames
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, making no profit off 'em, etc.
Word Count: 6,224
Summary: It was all going so well until Eames took a bullet in a bar fight, fired back, and promptly took another.

Notes: So, this came about thanks to platina, who wanted Arthur with a tramp stamp. Contains blood and violence. Also cowboys, Polish cinema, and bad tattoos.


( body frail, been to jail )

Yo, so I heard you like Halloween.

MIIIIIIIIIX:



( spooky songs beneath )